haiz...can't slp....as usual...cuz ran out of alcohol....it really helps me to sleep..numbs my feeling... its not that i don't wanna write anything or what...i just dunno what else to say....random thoughts are swimming in my head....everything little thing i do reminds me of her.... after reading her blog i feel even worse...shloudn't blame herself i think...it's all my fault...haiz...but really..sometimes thing just don't turn out the way you wanted them to be...i really wish i've never done some of the things i did to make her feel that way....foolish...i just can't stop thinking of her....my heart goes out to her for feeling so shitty....a part of me died from this incident... in a nutshell i just want her to be happy and concertrate on studies.... talk about studies... exams are like 40 days away for me...w00t!!!! but i haven started revision yet...guess sometimes shit happens.... TAK CEK LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!