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Monday, October 31, 2005

Bullshit

Was blog-surfing/blog-hoping(watever u call it) this morning as i decided this morning is my rest time as I was studying non stop for the past 4 days....can say study finish liao..except for HRM and Law(which I gonan study for the nest 2 days). Went to many different blog...ppl that I dunno....Found it hilarious why some Singaporeans are so fucking dumb.

Read a sec. school kid's blog....dunno who he/she is...but this person was damn fond of the french language I presume. The layout was full of french phrases....This person even blogged a whole page of french words. Not that I cam very proficent in french, BUT I do know enough french to know that the kid was making tons of mistakes. DON'T KNOW MEANS DON'T KNOW! DON'T ACT LIKE YOU FUCKING KNOW! There's always online translation services. I dunno what has gotten into me...but I was rather pissed....cuz I LOVE french...and this kid was making a fool out of himself/herself and the language.
Je sais un etudiant a Singapour-> means I know 1 student from sg......
Hello?!?!?!?! YOU are a singaporean and you only know one student from sg???
Dude, it should be Je suis un etudiant a Singapour which means I'm a student from sg.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Je ne comprend pas ton essai.
Pourqoui? Je ne sais pas.
Qu'est-ce que vous voulez?
Je t'aime une belle femme.
Mais elle ne m'aime pas.
Qu'est-ce je pui faire??
Aussi, je n'ai pas d'argent.
Qui ont l'argent?
Donnez-moi, s'il vous plait!!!!
JAJAJAJAJA

go figure.


Aye, listened to ghey zhou's latest album last nite....not that I don't like him....just that I think he has lost his touch and appeal....I prefer his old albums....Cuz IMO, the term ghey also applies to some narssistic ass who is so full of himself.... Imagine in one of the songs he goes like "yeah....ghey zhou...yeah ghey zhou....yeah ghey zhou..."
Man this guy keeps repeating his own name in the song.... is his ego so big or he can't get enough of his name?? SMLJ?? Say your own name high ar??? Must let other people say then nice mah.....(those who watch Pablo Fransico and Russell Peters should know what I mean...)
I also can come out with some songs that goes "oh eric ng....yeah...p0rn5tar... yeah....eric....ng...oh yeah.....suck my dick biatch"
Oh well watever....this guys is making millions and I'm stuck here preparing for exams... I should just STFU. 'nuff said.

You are not a victim,
and you are not an offender.
We all have cut off our names,
but I know a flaw in my name.
These are the dying years.
When you are suffering,
know that I have betrayed you.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

true love or love hurts???

Aye, in response to shaun's deep-thought-provoking poem....I present my version... the ultimate heaven-and-earth, yin-and-yang, black-and-white reply to his:
Read and learn kids

im so lost
as you moved on
im stucked at the original pt
hoping for miracle
a hope that seemed so faint
i know not where i am
nor where im heading
feelings so clear
emotions rises
i fear, im hurt, im outcasted
tears dropped
history repeats
but i will persist
till the very last breathe i have
even when a special someone comes along
bringing me to a place without you
yet you will still be there
in a special place right in the middle of my heart.

Suck on this mutha farkers.


Ho sey lah!!!! finished what I wanted to study today liao!!!!
8 hrs of soccer tonite!!!!
Spurs vs. Arsenal
Chelsea vs. Blackburn
Boro vs. Man U
AC Milan vs. Juventus


oh shit.....must go feed the pussy.... JAJAJAJA

live and learn, dipshits

Just read a blog of one of my friend. Possibly one of the most arrogant CS buddy I ever had in my life. And boy weilun-didi, I didn't know you are so bloody poetic!!!! JAJAJAJA!!!! Sg's very own Shakespeare in the making man!!!!! I like your attitude man..... There's really a certain amount of truth in it ya... JAJAJAJA!!!!!

17 days to 1st paper but my mind is still in a mess.....zzzzz
What do you expect of/from me??? What I expect from/of you???
Tons of questions unanswered.....suan le....leave it till 24th to ponder abt it....

Daijiro or D. Kato????

Thursday, October 27, 2005

concentration level

Zzz.....stomach really very very pain...think kena food poisoning liao....even the sleeping pills no effect on me...whole night sleep awhile wake up sleep awhile wake up....tried reading notes...but can only read the lines... the facts just won't sink in...can read but don't understand...
ARGhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
super low concentration level these days....short attention span...every now and then need a smoke... but once smoke liao tummy gets more painful....haiz...walk to toilet also pain...never really ate much yesterday also....
Sutdy also can't study...sleep also can sleep...explains why I am blogging this early...no mood to read other people's blog also.... only read rockson's rants, which never fails to put a smile on my face....as SOMEONE once said...can feel the watever-rons zapping around inside the brain....zapzapzapzap.....
Oh yes....think I'm gonna turn ghey soon....with japanese names like these:
Saruwatari Naoki and Fujiwara Tsubasa
http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/namegen/969/


yagami or itachi???

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Not shit now

There's still so much that we don't know about each other yet.
But we got the rest of our lives to figure it out.
So the question is : Why not?
In order to change your life,
You got to change your thinking.
So why not make a change today?

p.s. I know it now....not in the picture at all....now not only my stomach hurts...my heart hurts like hell too...

SHIT LAH!!!!!!!

At this rate I am shitting, I'm gonna shit my intestines out as well.....zzzzzzzzzzz
IN great pain.......................................

shui lai jiu wo???????

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

sick and tired

Blah....went to see doc today... never gave me dormicum or amytrapalin....hope the stalnox is good enough man.... after which went sun tanning with lee kah lok....By right just now should have gone to watch domino one...gala premiere somemore...plus it's free leh.... Haiz nvm lah.. gave to jc in the end....That bugger went for job interview today, or shall I say more than an interview. Cuz he was not interview at all, but instead was asked to do a series of tests. JAJAJA They must be checking your ability to work under stress cuz they fucking had to finish 35 qn in 25 mins. SMLJ???? It's MCQ, but there are like 5-10 choices per question??? JAJAJA Na bey. Anway good luck for your job bro...Hope you get it..then I can get discounted ciggies!!! JAJAJAJA

After that ji tao fall sleep sia.... By right should be studying in gym...but tmd think the rain plus my fatigue, I don't even need to pop the pills to sleep. Sleep until now then wake up!!!! Wasted so much time sia....Really need to go out study liao....But really not feeling well...diarrhae until my kar chn peet...JAJAJAJA really painful now....Then I vomitted a few times also....Haiz...think my internal organs are screwed too...not to mention my brain is totally fucked. Cannot think and got nothing to think about these days except for exams and her.... I just keep checking my hp every now and then just to see if she got msg me... JAJAJA tmd, I'm really an idiot...ain't that true...(cuz that's what she always call me)

Oh well, whatever lah... time will tell....I hope...TAK CEK LAH!!!!! 19 days to 1st paper!!!!!


*off to can b to find hui-ge to study....think to tonite no need sleep again*

p.s. what can cure asshole pain ar?? not rectum probe pls....n am i suffering from lung cancer??? cuz I vomitted blood just now.

1 more CD

There's one more CD that I confirm will buy after my exams: Prodigy: The Best Of.
Been a huge prodigy fan since my sec school days. Really, I got all of their CD singles in one limited box set. It comes with a zipper lighter that has the word FIRESTARTER carved on it. There's also a nose spike plus a ring with the words ONE LOVE engraved on it. Ya man, I'm a big big fan of Electonica. Too bad they've only released one official album to date: The Fat Of The Land. It was the first CD i bought from HMV many years back.

Argh.... tmd... don't know if it's insonmia or what. Slept at 1am and woke up at 4am. Trying very hard to do some tut now. Super awake....must be the bloody caffine inside the coke. Must be yesterday sleep too much also...NB..wake up that time already sunset liao. Was damn surprised to see a freind still while awake online on msn just now. Aye bro...we both suffering from insonmia and exams stress too bah I guess. Prob more stressfull for you, cuz the first words you msg me was FUCK. jajajajajajajaja Relac lah braaader....later I go see doc ask for more dormicum ok!!!!

And YAY!!!!! Secret Mission No.1 completed yesterday morning with Secret Weapon No.1 !!!!!
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
More missions coming up!!!!!!!!!


*ok time's up pornie.....go back do your tut....*



This is what you should fear,
You are what you should fear.
It won't give up it wants me dead,
Godamn this voice inside my head.

Monday, October 24, 2005

PHOTOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pics taken from the Beyond - The Story Live 2005 concert on 15th oct.
Just to serve as a reminder that I did the once-in-my-lifetime-thing of attending the greatest chinese band concert so that I will not live to regret it next time.

wishlist!!!!!

Marilyn Manson's Lest We Forget

Nine Inch Nails' With Teeth
MOS Dance Nation
Jajajaa. After seeing steFATnie's wish list... I wanna do one also!!! JEJEJE

But mine all are CDs loh... not some expensive watches or jewellery. Can tell I'm a music freak.

At the moment, only got 4 items I want lah...simple... still got other things.. but much much more expensive... these are the only feasible ones for now:

1)MOS: Dance Nation CD, only in sg plus got 2 complementary tix when MOS opens end of this year at clark quay.(who buy me this one I bring you go MOS when it opens!!! =) )

2)Nine Inch Nails latest CD: With Teeth. Out very long liao just bo money to buy.

3)Marilyn Manson's latest CD: Lest We Forget. Also out very long liao but also bo money buy.

4)This CD compilation called Closer. Saw it on tv ads just now but can't find its pic on net. Its a CD that contain many soothing melodies. I LIKE!!!!!

Haiz, all these cost total of around 200 bucks loh....Must start to save up to buy liao...Needing vitamin M badly...prob should just cut down on cigs....

I can't live without music. If there's no music in this world, I'll be better off dead - Wong Kar Kiu

Sunday, October 23, 2005

5 quirks abt myself

1) I can't sleep without a bolster. Dunno why, it's has been a habit of mine since young. Need to have something between my legs(pun not intended), smoething to hug to sleep.

2) I don't dig my own ears. For the past 24 years, my dearest mommy has been doing this job. She will take those old-school metal ear diggers and help me to clear my dirt everytime. That's why I always say "I love my MaMa".

3) Something is wrong with my sweat glands, esp on the face. Beads of sweat will appear on my face even when I'm eating non spicy food. Take a few flights of stairs down also will sweat like mad loh NB

4) I eat anything and everything thats edible(well almost), except bittergourd, capsicum, brinjal and lady's finger.

5) I can only pang sai on those squatting toilets. Give me those sitting ones I squeeze how hard also won't come out. Oh yes, pang sai confirm must sio hoon ki also one loh.

Right that's all I can think of on a lazy sunday morning...think got more... but let's just stay at 5.
OK now I'm gonna go 5 other ppl's blog to tag them.... watch out suckers!!!!

p.s. getting kicked out of bed is not fun man.... once is enuff liao...JAJAJAJA

opps...one more thing to add... the ppl i tag are Shaunie, Stephy and Cyndi (links at the side).
One more is steFATnie and the last person is I know can liao... JAJAJAJA

Insomnia cured but now got headache & backache

Last night was the most bestest sleep I ever got for the past few weeks!!!!!!!!
Insonmia all cured, but now got backache and headache.

Really is Ma Ma , Na Beyyyyyy
JAJAJAJAJAJAJA

Saturday, October 22, 2005

&^$%^%#$%#%^#

Spending a sat afternoon in lib is really not fun man.....zzzzzzzzzz
And the online lectures are so fucking good at hypnotising me to sleep...TMD
I got so bored to play the one of the oldest game on windows, and its always one of my fav waste-time-away game..... JAJAJAJAJAJA


p.s. jiu ming ar!!!! someone save me from this misery.... knn.. my exams are already giving me a big headache.... I don't need you to give me more problems ok!!!!!!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

3 months

Take care bro.... see you in 3 months time....
Just talked to yuehua over msn this morning... apparently even if you are the boss' son, you still must reach the office early. Even if you got no work to do, you must also be there in the office to learn. JAJAJAJAJAA So fast he already start work liao!!!!!
And WTF?!?!?!?! china there ban blog sites liek blogger n xanga.... jajajaja Therefore he can't see this....too bad bro.... Btw, your new hairstyle sux0r!!!!! so fucking short!!!! JAJAJAA
No wonder he never keep short hair throughout the 5 years(yes 5 yrs) he was in NTU.
But heck man.... your future already there for you liao loh... can relac relac go be your umbrella tycoon
JAJAJAJAA

*back to trying to slp....tmd...overdose of caffine realyl screwed my bio-clock*

tired mind and soul

Aye, I've been tagged by Mr. Kyne Lim to list 5 quirks about myself..... need time to think ya...too many equations and formulaes swimming in my head right now.....need to sleep and think about the quirks tml... or when I'm free....
Well, chelsea is 4-0 up now.... who can beat them now sia....
can off tv n sleep liao.....

KOONZ AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

the feeling of missing someone

anyway, by the way, need to tell you.... [cos i can't take it (bth) anymore.] i keep thinking abt you, wondering abt you, hoping to see you somewhere in sch. i'm damn restless these days. my mind'll juz drift away from studying. almost everywhere in sch reminds me of you. i keep looking at bikes (!!!). i think maybe it's juz the sch campus. but. maybe not. i dunno. wth. anyway, goodnight

This has got to be the best and the most heart warming msg I've received in a long long time.
I miss you too babe.......right now.... I just want the both of us to concentrate on our exams....
To my friends who are reading this and are having their exasm soon... PLEASE!!!!
STUDY HARD!!!!!!! MUG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god?????

whose god can give me 1 million?? I'll convert to your religion immediately!!!! JAJAJAJA
thy money come, Thy will be done!!!!!!

Your god is dead,
And no one cares.
If there is a hell,
I'll see you there.

Heresy - Nine Inch Nails

*overdose of stella artois*

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

no title lah!!!!

NBCB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes I really wonder WTF are women thinking????? Waht do you really want now??? Does what I think of you matters anymore?? What I say now don't mean a thing anymore liao right?? So why bother asking? IS this a way of making yourself feel better?? It doesn't matter to me anymore....I simply can't be bothered right now, esp with exams round the corner. Fuck man... I should really start studying. I can't believe that 1 single sms can lead me to stoning for 1 day.... KNN. Why suddenly contact me again??? Been sms-ing for the past 2 days... really spoilt my mood.. I shouldn't have replied at all....but a part of me makes me feel something for her again....CCB lah....ji tao wasted 2 days lazing around. I keep telling myself that I should be concentrating on studies and must never be dragged down by rs matters.... but fuck man... guess I'm not good at letting go....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Comp down again for the past few days... no net... no msn... fucking du lanz...BUt hey, I had a fantastic weekend man!!!! JAJAJAJAJAA

Fri nite: Mr Lee yuehua aka lao jei came back to find us for supper... He just left for china this morning to embark on the 2nd phase of his life: working life. Time to start workng liao lah u this rich fag!!!!! jajajaja. Bloody rich taiwan kid!!!! Wish you all the best in your work bro... and see you in 3 mths time.

Sat nite: BEYOND THE STORY 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! A dream come true!!!! After missing their LIVE&BASIC concert 10 yrs ago, I finally get to see them back in sg again!!!! LIVE somemore!!!! Bought the most ex tix, cuz its their last time performing together, and I wanted to see them up close. it was a truly exhilarating experience, with the concert lasting 2hr 30 mins (got my money worth). Never was there a dull moment. From the start, they performed a song from each of their albums dating back to 1983. Then we were shown videoclips of their past concerts and of course the deceased wong kar jiu himself. By the end of the concert, most of the fans were moved to tears, myself included. Was really glad to be with a couple of my 11 yr old bros for the concert.

To jeremy: u can understand the cantonese anot huh??? lol
To james: quit playing DOTA n go get some exercise man
To jc: pls get a job fast man...n u looked like a photo whore that nite JAJAJA
to heda: wah lao ur hk frenz got 1 not bad looking sia!!! jajajaja

p.s. i really need ppl to motivate me to study or study tog!!! ARGH!!!!!!!

Friday, October 14, 2005

photos part 2 !!!!

This post is dedicated to CB Toh/Pussy Toh/Mhd Bin Toh/ aka Toh weizhong, who asked me why my blog no pics..... There you go bro...
Fucking comp died on me....just reformatted comp.... no more trojans and virus!!! SHIOK!!!!
Thanx to Andrew for his GHOST also... JEJEJEJE

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Photos!!!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Suay life

My life is really crap lah. Super kiam cai mia. Fucked up life sia. How suay can I get?
Went to lab today...nothing to do then check student link....found out i never got my ia interview job...haiz
SIAN 1/2!!!!!!!!!!!!! crap lah!!! spent so much effort and time and money then never kena... fucking good job leh... pui....
suay like fuck.. must be my cb results... knn....there goes my travel job dream...zzzzz
My life's a fucking joke... please laugh...

*back to amsterdam beer...kena intro by friend..not bad sia...kinda sweet aftertaste*

Are you a virgin???

Just finished watching A 40 year old virgin.
Fucking hilarious....just a few questions that came to my mind:
How many guy do you need to fuck in order to become a slut/whore/biatch?
And how many sluts/whores/biatches you need to fuck in order for you to become a gentleman???

Virginity is just like a balloon,
One prick and its gone.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Music moves people

Is it getting better
Or do you feel the same
Will it make it easier on you now
You got someone to blame
You say...
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it
Did I disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
Well it's...Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...
Have you come here for forgiveness
Have you come to raise the dead
Have you come here to play Jesus
To the lepers in your head
Did I ask too much
More than a lot
You gave me nothing
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again
You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt
One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should
One life
With each other
SistersBrothers
One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One...life
One

One - U2

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
My hands are tied
My body bruised, she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

With or without you - U2


Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.
We were out on a date in my daddy's car,
We hadn't driven very far.
There in the road straight ahead,
A car was stalled, the engine was dead.
I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right,
I'll never forget the sound that night.
The screaming tires, the busting glass,
The painful scream that I heard last.
When I woke up, the rain was falling down,
There were people standing all around.
Something warm flowing through my eyes,
But somehow I found my baby that night.
I lifted her head, she looked at me and said;
"Hold me darling just a little while."
I held her close I kissed her - our last kiss,
I found the love that I knew I had missed.
Well now she's gone even though I hold her tight,
I lost my love, my life that night.


Last Kiss - Pearl Jam


These are the 3 songs that struck me last night at Wala Wala's. I'm always moved whenever I hear these songs. Sometimes I really think that music can really move people. It really brings people all around the world together. Even if you don't understand the language or lyrics, you can feel the rythm or the tempo of the song. Be it the drums or the guitar chords, I'm sure everyone at some point of their lives will have certain songs that really moves them; a song that they FEEL and can relate to.

Quotes

Thes are the quotes I find meaningful...from 2 of the greatest CS buddies I ever had....

i dont get i dont find, they just drop by and decide not to get lost.
Nature abhors a virgin- a dormant asset.

Determination

I'm bad at giving up.....be it smoking or studies or anything.... I'm just bad at it....
I won't give up...cuz that's the way I am....

I wasn't born with enough middle fingers,
I don't need to choose a side.

Friday, October 07, 2005

Women part 2

I got my sleeves folded by a girl for the first time in my life......
Or should I just say for the first time in my life, got a girl help me fold my sleeve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJAJA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*off to wala wala to a brother's nite out drinking session....hoegaargen here i come!!!!*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR. BERNARD HAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jajajajajajjaaj shen ri kuai le lao ren!!!!!!!!!!
thanx for taking good care of me as a prez when i was a freshie..... in my eyes only you, teik seong and vincent are the only prez i know and you guys are amazing!!!!!
Pls go get yourself drunk tonite!!!!!!
lao bu si de...i too share your passion and love for our hall...but sadly.. sometimes things just don't turn out the way we wanted them to be....
but let's just fuck it.....
treasure today while it last and party to the max tonite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*nb...today got one presentation and 1 lab assessment... knn...see an ah beng in shirt and pants*

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Song for u my bro

Over Mountains
Over Trees
Over Oceans
Over Seas
I'll be there
In a whisper on the wind
On the smile of a new friend
Just think of me
And I'll be there
Don't be afraid, oh my love
I'll be watching you from above
And I'd give all the world tonight,
To be with you
Because I'm on your side,
And I still careI may have died,
But I've gone nowhere
Just think of me,
And I'll be there
On the edge of a waking dream
Over Rivers
Over Streams
Through Wind and Rain
I'll be there
Across the wide and open sky
Thousands of miles I'd fly
To be with youI'll be there
Don't be afraid, oh my love
I'll be watching you from above
And I'd give all the world tonight,
To be with you
Because I'm on your side,
And I still careI may have died,
But I've gone nowhere
Just think of me,
And I'll be there
In the breath of a wind that sighs
Oh, there's no need to cry
Just think of me,
And I'll be there


I'll be there - Escape Club


This is the song for you my bro!!!!!!
Don't worry Mr. Lee Kah Lok, I will play this song on your funeral!!!
JAJAJAJAJA!!!!!!!!

BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now now... I seldom or never has called a woman biatch before... unless she does something that reallys infuriated me..... but this woman.... TMD... that's my limit man
How could you even fucking do this???????????? How could you betray your friends, your comrades, your brothers and sisters-in-arms!!!!!!!!
How could you betray your very own residents?????????????????????
As a leader and spokeperson for your hall, shouldn't you help them????
Instead you choose to betray your own people!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU BIATCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not only you choose to ignore the problems and the current situation, you also tried to push the blame to someone else. WTF is going through your mind man?????
Haiz.... thats why it is said that the human brain is the most powerful weapon...not nuclear arms(knn if i got nuclear weapon, lim bei cfm nuke her). Is it your up-bringing or has any recent events that has affected you so much that changed you??? I dunno and i simply don't care....for me betrayal is something I cannot stand among friends. To think she was under my leadership before.... how could a person change so drastically??? Don't you ever thought of the friendship forged over the past 3 years???? Do you even have a consicence????
Do your really want to ruin our hall???? 12 years of pride and tradition will go down the drain just like that.....
Thanx biatch...you just ruined our only hope of fighting back.... It's already 14 halls against us... we simply do not need another of us to be against us..... tmd....
Fucking disgrace.....
You are truly a hall legacy.... the rest of the halls will never have it....


*back to my jim bean and coke!!!!!*

And Mr. Lee Kai Jim.... you fucking owe me a pack of cigs!!!! That's for dropping my half pack of cigs into the drain!!!!!!

SMLJ

CHEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY....................... I wasn't even in the picture....blah...cannot be bothered anymore...why i even fucking care....zzzzzzz....yuan lai its not about me but about friends and god....pui !!!!!!!

TMD....some fucker stole my soccer shorts....cb lah!!!! soccer shorts also wanna steal!!!! Unwashed one somemore.... knn...got mroe bo liao anot???
This adds on to the list of things I've lost in hall.....
1)a pair of levi's jeans
2)couple of renoma boxers and briefs
3)dustbin (duh rite!!!)
and now my shorts.......
been missing couple of t-shirts too.....
NB..I think its the same person....
I got secret admirer meh??? mai lai lah......
unwash shorts also wanan smell meh??? knnbccb

*off to softball training....this year must win!!!!!! regardless of got points or not*

women

haiz...can't slp....as usual...cuz ran out of alcohol....it really helps me to sleep..numbs my feeling...
its not that i don't wanna write anything or what...i just dunno what else to say....random thoughts are swimming in my head....everything little thing i do reminds me of her....
after reading her blog i feel even worse...shloudn't blame herself i think...it's all my fault...haiz...but really..sometimes thing just don't turn out the way you wanted them to be...i really wish i've never done some of the things i did to make her feel that way....foolish...i just can't stop thinking of her....my heart goes out to her for feeling so shitty....a part of me died from this incident...
in a nutshell i just want her to be happy and concertrate on studies....
talk about studies... exams are like 40 days away for me...w00t!!!!
but i haven started revision yet...guess sometimes shit happens....
TAK CEK LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


p.s. women are really amazing creatures...

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

updates

Sorry for not updating last nite.... got myself high last nite again... jajajajaa....and played mj too... lucky to win money....
Aye today woke up with splitting headache(as usual). And there's more alcohol in my piss than there is piss....jejejee...
Never go to school cuz Khairul jio me go JB...So I went in with him at around 4plus...went in for petrol n cigs loh...what else...
The journey in was smooth, but come back that time there was jam at m'sia customs. Super long queue....then come back sg side also jammed at the bags checking. TMD, got so many lanes to check and so many bigs queuing up, they only open up 2 lanes....DUH. Purposely one rite....
Anyway, here's part of our conversation while queuing up at m'sia customs:

Me: eh now ramadan hor....
K : ya....
Me: day time drink water oso cannot ar??
K: ya... one bit of water oso cannot....
Me: like dat u all can tahan meh?? got wat purpose sia?
K : can lah.. used to it oready...cuz when fasting that time n u feel hungry rite.. it serves as a reminder to u that there r ppl out there who r hungry oso... who got nthg to eat oso...
Me: wah lan.. i always feel hungry one leh....but i nvr go think abt those who got nthg to eat one leh...
K: ...................................................
*K ignores me for a few mins....*
K: eh, u day time come always jam one isit??
Me: ya... everythime i come in the day always got jam.. either jb side or sg..bound to have one side got jam...
K: sia lah... must be u lah... i come in day time so many times nvr jam... today come in with u then kena jam.... must be u lah....
Me: ..............................................
*my turn to ignore K*

And..... OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I saw a ducati 998 at the petrol kiosk!!!!!!! I stood there staring at it for a full 5 min before doing anything.....think need my hands to collect my drool....jajajaja
Then it started to hit me.... You fucking rich enough to own a Ducati, must you come into JB for petrol????? *p0rn5tar shakes head*
If give lim bei a ducati... I confirm give it the best treatment... only feed it with V-power.

Came back to hall at around 5plus.... ate alone in room....did I meantion that I fucking hate to eat alone....dunno why.. the feeling simply SUCKS!!!!!!

Wqatched Herbie Fully Loaded on dvd just now....so-so nia... kinda of ok...but not those kind of movies that justifies the 9.50 movie tix....

Just finished my assignment...Business plan presentation coming up on fri.... I kind of suck with powerpoint.... jajaja...ironic hor... Comp Eng UNDERGRAD dunno how to use powerpoint...zzzzzzz...watever....

Oh ya....Happy Birthday Stephy!!!!!!! jajaja.... dunno if you are reading this, but heck.....
BTW, you got a nice blog girl....

*Special shoutouts to vanessa for lending a listening ear and sorry for sending in the slides late. To shuzhen too.... for offering great advice and being a great mother to me. JAJAJAJA

ps. check out this hokkien blog..http://hokkienlang.blogsome.com/
note: not for those kang tang out there....

music is the food of love

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more form the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more form the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters



Nothing Else Matters - Metallica

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

life goes on

Well....I said it before and I shall say it again..... I wanna thank all those who msg me in one way or another.... thanx for your concern... p0rn5tar is trying to bounce back....woke up today with lots of msg on msn and hp.... Really appreciate it... thanx guys n girls....
As the title says... Life really must go on....

Anyway...I got Paulaner's Original Munchner in my fridge right now!!!!! JAJAJAJAJA!!!!!!
Time to enjoy....Ahhhhhh...A beer in one hand and a cig in another....Shiokkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!

Will be back with more posts....been thinking alot today.....

*Now back to my hoegaarden, stella artois, paulaner and my marlboro...*

real world

When your memories of your past is greater than the hope of your future....you are already dead.
Dreaming is the emotional preparation for the good things that will happen in the future....worrying is the emotional preparation that things will go wrong......
so why worry.... just fuck it and be happy....
to quote it from a bro of mine:" why worry?? just relax n smile man!!!! you gotta chill!!! just be happy when you wake up the next morning and still able to talk cock with your friends, still able to smoke, still able to eat, still able to drink!!! that's good enough!!!"

aye man..... here's me saying thanx to all those whom showed concern in one way or another....
THANK YOU!!!! KAM SIA!!!! MERCI BEAUCOUP!!!!!

p0rn5tar will be back.....

DRUNK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK IT FUCK YOU FUCK ME FUCK EVERYTHING!!!! I'M FUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My superincumbent complex locution and verbal auity surpasses your circumscribed lexicon and your use of grandiose vocabulary are meant to cover the insufficiency of the nether regions of your anatomy.
I'm appalled by the sheer verbosity of your own exuberance.
Success is the progressive realisation of a worthwhile dream.
Success is not the immediate fulfillment of a dream.
Mark my words.

Monday, October 03, 2005

what is sorrow and sadness???

wa ey tong kor siang ey zai???????
dunno what the hell am I doing... feel damn useless.... gotten myself drunk alone in room...I'm a loser...My life's a joke.....

FUCK LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time to show off!!!!!

yay!!!! time to show off my ride!!!!! its a 1997 honda nsr250sp model....you can call it mc28 or better known as pgm4!!!! I simply love this baby of mine!!!

The First Post

w00t!!!! The first post!!!! Usually ppl will get excited by their 1st post, but not me. Was thinking for quite some time on whether shld I start blogging...It really serves as an option to write down all my thoughts and all about my life.
To start it off(kinda of in a sad mood now)...... Hello world...welcome to my life....

Let me ask you guys out there what's communications??? And is religion really that important??
I am a simple man with simple feelings(though some ppl out there might disagree). All I want was a woman who I can relate to and she can relate back. Spend time together doing things you usually do in everyday life. eg:watching tv, eating, go out jalan jalan. Very difficult meh???? KNN!!!!!!!!

Yah lah.... I know ppl always judge me by my outlook....I know it lah... Ah beng lah... with profanities in almost every sentence....and not being serious at all...one whom you can't engage serious talk with....let me tell you pu bors out there:
DON'T FUCKING JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I forgot what I wanted to type.....Various thoughts were swimming all over my brain the entire day....simply could not concertrate on studies.... and now when I wanted to type it all out... all the words vanished....(short term memory sympton). I dunno what to type....dunno how to type...simply confused and demoralised....

Well... one thing I learnt...shouldn't start things too fast... else it will end fast... perhaps some things like trust n feelings just need time to cultivate....But I am that kind of person what.... when i want.. i really go for it.... and when I fall..I fall hard....Kind of like impulsive shopping...if you know what i mean....

I am sick of going through all these rubbish..... But i really dun wanna turn back to my old days of being a bad guy......(6mths of being a bad guy is enuff... played enuff...period). Sometimes these things really fumed my rage abt women, makes me wanna take revenge. But no... I've already promised myself I shall never do those kind of things again.

Oh well....whatever floats your boat man....back to the days of intoxicating myself with nicotine and alcohol again....